2001-11-02
Robbie has won tonight's award for making me cry.
His email was cold and distant. and nothing like I expected.
It was awful.
He is dropping out of UNI to "play some music and make some movies" and he said he's call me "soonish" and said about the other night "thanks for coming to our gig-it was money".
So thats all I am- a punter now.
How could I have misconstrued the situation so much.
No, fuck it I didn't. The words came from his mouth not mine. he put it out there and I only acted on what was put out.
and all that he gave me was love and admiration.
and now cold distant messaged flickering on my screen.
fuck
and annaki's away for the weekend in another city. I left pathetic messages on her phone. close to tears.
fuck
.