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"At least we're still friends, at least we're still in life" Alkaline Trio

It's all sore. And there is more spots. and where some went there is bruises. I bruise real easy.

and I tried really hard today not to be a Jerkass Mcferkass. Real hard.

Even though I didn't get dutch meaty parcels of fried goodness as promised, so my heart fell a little around lunchtime, but by the time my washing was dry it was okay again, I folded and made things neat then slept.

spell your name backwards]: nagem (oh har har)

[describe how you feel right now in 3 words]: spotty, sleepy, content

[what is the latest you've ever stayed up?]: not sleeping at all I guess [ever been to belgium?]: nope

[wallet]: burgandy leather

[jewelry worn daily]: earrings, two silver bracelts around my left wrist

[pillow cover]: white

[blanket]: doona

[sunglasses]: black, square, large

[underwear]: there is a rather large assortment. Now pale pink lace

[favourite top]: ohh this is hard. White mooks never fails/salteens tee

[favorite pants]: jeans, cuffed up

[cd in stereo right now]: Miss Anna tape- weakerthans, get up kids, alkaline trio

[wearing]: jeans, pink bonds, pink ribbon

[hair]: messy and wet

[makeup]: no, it's nearly bedtime

[in my mouth]: candy in the shape of little stars (but I had to pick out all the orange)

[in my head]: roadtrips across a country other than my own

[hearing]: "I need to pay my hearts outstanding bills" Weakerthans

[wishing]: To get better, the be back to normality with the ones I love, to be out dancing, to be making out, to be singing real loud while people stare, to be down the coast flying along in Helens car at a million miles, to by lying on a beach, to be holding hands, to be looking into eyes that says things I can't.

[after this]: continue dreaming about better health amongst fluffy pillows

[talking to]: Gavin and Jack.

[eating]: candy, but now it's almost gone.

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