2001-05-31
"The longest distance in the world isn't the distance of life and death, it's not people seperated beyond the ocean, it is the fact that I am standing infront of you but you don't know I love you"
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This weird feeling is creeping over me and filling my veins, I think I am weirded out, complety taken aback by this state am in.
I turn 18 tomorrow.
There is a certain deal of joy in this as here in Australia you can legally drink and legally get into clubs/pubs and gigs.
There is also a certain deal of sadness for me, it's the eve of my 18th birthday, after midnight tonight my world changes forever.
I will become an adult.
I will be held responsible for my actions and the ill fated actions of beings in my world.
But I will not become a hypocrite or a liar, Thom York (radiohead) says that to become an adult is to become a hypocrite and a liar.
In this case I hope to stay a child for eternity.
I guess it's a long time since I have been a child, a child being an entity that is unaware of it's actions, the affect of these actions and the state of the universe it lives it.
I have always been aware of my universe, but now I can look on the shiny pop granduaer without dirt in my eyes, I think that makes me somewhat lucky.
I was reading my friend Marthas art major she is finishing year 12 this year, and she had this really beautiful saying, I cried it was so special.
"Sell flashlights in the void"
I feel so lucky, so scared and so right tonight.
I hope this is what is feels like to become an adult.
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